I'm Pregnant!!!!!

So I haven't posted in sooooo long! Basically I had nothing to say except that IM PREGNANT, and I wasn't ready to spill the beans, so I took a hiatus. I did spill a couple of weeks ago, but hadnt gotten around to posting here yet! We are very excited (now), but we weren't at first,

Story:

So this wasn't a "planned" baby at all, but I have no problem admitting that. To me, that just means this baby is even more special because even though we thought we were way too busy and too poor to add another to our family Heavenly Father made us do it! I was on the pill and still nursing Harley, so obviously we had to have had some divine intervention! So I was several weeks "late" and had taken a test the week before and it was negative. I actually wasn't really worried at all that I was pregnant. Nursing has been messing with my system so I hadn't been "regular". Well on the night of September 12th I was thinking to myself, man I really wish I could just get my period so I can stop having the "could I be pregnant?" thought in the back of my mind! So Matty and I were watching Bones and I quietly got up and decided to go pee on a stick for my own peace of mind, fully intending it to be negative. Well I peed, set the stick down, went to wash my hands, picked it back up and watched the dreaded 2 lines appear. No way! I was in shock. It only took me 30 seconds to come to the realization of what this meant. So I open the bathroom door, told Matt to come here, and when he did I showed him the stick. His eyes got all wide and I believe he said, "No. Is it positive!?" I shook my head yes and fell into his chest crying. I cried for about 2 hrs. I moved from the doorway of the bathroom into the bedroom and laid on the bed bawling. The words "why me" and "this isn't fair" came out of my mouth more times than I could count. To me this was the worst timing ever. I had just mapped out my schooling until graduation (4 quarters!) and we had just written up an offer on a house, a 2 bedroom house. How could this happen to me? What would people think? what would my parents say? It was all so overwhelming. Finally after about 2 hrs I calmed down. I made Matt promise he would tell my parents (because Im chicken!) and that seemed to help ease my panic slightly. We finally fell asleep and by morning I was at peace. By afternoon I was excited! I was ready to be a mom of 2. Yeah I still have freak out moments at times (what happens if this baby doesn't sleep! how am I going to handle school? OMG Im going to deliver mid quarter!) but all in all Im happy! Im going to have a baby!

So we are due May 23rd 2011

Today we are 11w5d along

We will find out the gender on December 13th, 2010

Harley will be 17.5 months old when the new baby arrives!

I will be 2 weeks away from the end of the quarter if he/she arrives on his/her due date.

here is an estimation of our baby right now :):) this baby is 11weeks

Tantrums

Ugh I just need to vent! Harley will be 10months later this week and the tantrums are becoming RIDICULOUS! I'm talking tantrum about everything! Heaven forbid you take something away from her, or move her, or put her in the car, or don't feed her fast enough..... the world may come to an end.

The worst culprits for inducing an all out scream, yell, make mean faces tantrum are:::

1. Riding in the car. Of course the girl gets the most padded and most comfortable seat in the car. It has a built in head rest and a gentle recline to lull her to sleep. Does that work? No. From the second we get in the car to the second we get out she turns the ride into a living HELL. Scream, yell, gurgle... you would think someone was killing her. The worst part? The giant smile she gets when she sees you open her door to get her out. It just reinforces the fact that she was FAKING IT!

2. Mom eating. O-M-G. You would think the world is coming to an end. If I EVER eat anything without her, no matter how full she is, she has a cow. She will stand there and look devestated. When that doesnt work she will cry, when that doesnt work she will look at me, get angry, and yell at the top of her lungs. Its becoming a problem for us.

HOWEVER. Even with our tantrum problem I still am the luckiest girl in the world to have such an amazing little girl. She is pretty much the best ever and I just need to keep it in perspective. One thing that helps is reading this blog

www.patrickandashley.blogspot.com

They are an amazing and inspiring family who lost their daughter (who was a year older than Harley) earlier this year. Their faith makes me want to be a better person and every time I read her posts I bawl like a baby and want to go hug my little girl. I totally recommend reading it, but I would do it in private, because all the tears could make people uncomfortable :):)

CONTGNT Fin/Ins

Yep! That means contingent on financing and insurance and it's the new status of the house we just put an offer on! And they accepted! FINALLY! We are having our inspection done Sunday and the loan paperwork is being drawn up as we speak. We are trying not to get overly excited after losing 4 straight houses (was it 4? I'm losing count now. Harley, Dodridge, Arlington... ok only 3, this is #4) Well anyway we saw it once and the tenant was in there and all of his dirty stuff and he looked really sad so it was hard to take too good of a peak at it. We actually put an offer in as a curb offer meaning we never even saw the inside before we put in our offer, but it turned out well! Its 3 bedrooms 1.5 baths, needs some love but we are ready for that. Hopefully I can take some pictures during the inspection (barring no termite damage or a rotting roof or something, that would be our luck!) And hopefully we will be first time home owners next month!!!! Only problem, the tenant has 60 days to vacate. So its possible that we could own the house and still have a tenant for another month.... LAME!

Here it is! Wish us luck!

Fall Quarter

So I've officially been to TWO whole days of class since school started a week ago. Lucky me, I only go Tues/Thurs. So far, so good! It will be a bit of a challenge getting back in the swing of things and there is a crap ton of reading, but I'm so freaking excited!! So here is a synopsis of my teachers:

Intro to Sociological Theory with Donna Crossman. This lady is like 80 years old and a total firecracker. She has made several hilarious comments about shooting people. She is a self described radical and Marxist. She thinks that Marx is just misunderstood and that we should all read him in order to be "enlightened". Let me just say that after reading "The Manifesto of the Communist Party" I have to disagree with her.

Social Stratification with Jonathan Vaughn. MOST HILARIOUS TEACHER EVER... the beginning of class is like a stand up comedy act. Which really gets me in the mood for learning. Then he moves on the meat and potatoes. He explains things so well and uses the most hilarious examples with the funniest narrations ever. I really hope that he never reads my blog because this review could totally go to his head. Only problem is he describes himself as "no worse than an R rated movie", meaning he curses A LOT. usually more in the beginning of class and then in seemingly relevant places throughout the lecture. I could do without it, but hey its a trade off I guess.

So funniest thing he said in class today was the way he described the difference between Functionalist Theorists and Conflict Theorists. This wont be funny to any non Soc majors but

This is the way Conflict theorists see the world:

And this is the way Functionalist Theorists see the world:

BAHAHAHHAHA he said he just googled "rainbow sparkle kitty" and it was the first image to pop up. I was skeptical, so I did it and the man is not a liar!

third time's the charm..... or not

So we have been house hunting for the past few months and today, we lost our third house in a row.... It has been such a disappointed roller coaster. Just when we get excited about a house and start making plans it gets snatched away. Three times loosing on the bid? Who even knew that was possible!! I am seriously getting so discouraged! So RIP Dodridge house, you will be missed

and Harley Dr. house...

and Scioto View Ln. house...

Perhaps the 4th time is the charm...

Harley's Stats

Quick post on Harleys stats:
21lbs (85%tile)
27.75 inches (58%tile)

120th % for cuteness!!

SCHOOL IS DONE.... for a couple of weeks

YAYY!! Last night I finished my final paper for Spanish 104, so the quarter is over!!! Starting in a couple of weeks I will be at OSU on the final leg of my way too long journey towards becoming an OSU alumnus. Im pretty excited!!

In other news, the house hunt is going HORRIBLY! Every time we find something that we like, it sells right before we put our bid in, or the other realtor wont show it to us. Don't people WANT to sell their houses?! I guess this is just the Lord's way of teaching me patience. It will happen when it happens and if it doesn't happen, at least I have a great apartment!!

Finally, today is Harley's 9 month check up. Wish her luck! I will post stats when we get home!

Harley is 9 months!!

Oh how things have changed! She is so big now! The girl is crawling all over and pulling up on everything! She is just so much fun now!

We just went on vacation to Maine last week, which was basically AMAZING! So gorgeous and relaxing, even if it was 90 degrees the entire time. Matt and I decided that we may want to live there one day, and I can't wait to go back. The house we stayed at was an huge New England style home right on the water that was very historic. I really doesnt get much better.

Sunrise from the porch :):)

I finally got my classes scheduled for next quarter. I couldnt fit them around Matts schedule so it looks like we will need a babysitter for my class times on Tuesdays and Thursdays, but oh well, I'm SO EXCITED to be a Buckeye again!

Take 2 (or 3 or 4... but Im doing it this time!)

Yep.... I really really suck at blogging.... Like REALLY! So new theory: Not every day, and not a whole lot, but I still want to have one of those clever little blogs with little thoughts and cute pictures of my baby... I think this is going to work!

On the agenda and on my mind the next couple of weeks:

Excited for Alicia's cookout/bbq/campout? tonight. Should be fun.

Pretty stoked that Matty made good money this last week, not so stoked that its ALL going to pay off our credit card since I had to put my summer classes and books on it :(:( its no fun to make money when you are just paying for things you already have! Im totally determined to never get into frivolous debt now.

Our friends Travis and Leah are moving in a couple of weeks and Im pretty sad.... Now we have to go make new friends and that is just a lot of work!

I played ultimate frisbee for the first time in almost 2 years last Thursday.... I thought I might die, but I didnt, and it was AWESOME!

I have pretty much the cutest baby EVER and I just got some babylegs on super duper sale and she looks adorable in them!!

Ok, now I need to go be a mom, but that was a great start!!!

Very cute baby in very cute babylegs!

Well obviously writing in my blog everyday didn't work out so well! Let's reevaluate this. I will write in my blog whenever I feel like it from now on!!

So since last time I wrote a few things have happened. Harley is over 5 months old now! She is rolling over like a champ and she has such a personality!! She hasnt been sleeping very well for the last month or so, but last night she slept for a full 12 hrs!!!! I'm a lucky mama! She started solids about a week ago and she sure does enjoy her cereal. I'm very blessed to have such a happy baby on my hands. Sunday was my first Mother's Day ever and Matty didn't disappoint. He spent hours working on a secret project and when I finally received it I was so surprised. He took an issue of People magazine and for the article, World's Most Beautiful he replaced the article with an article about me. and the pictures with pictures of me. It was very adorable!

Day 4, April 5, 2010

Ahhh Monday! They are so much better now that I'm a full time mommy and Monday doesn't mean "back to the grind". I suppose though that my life now means that weekends no longer exist and I'm "on the grind" 24-7. Lucky for me I do a job that I truly love so its pretty easy. Matty told me again today what a great mom I am and that he had been right in thinking I would be when he fell in love with me. It really makes me feel great to hear things like that. Most of the time I feel like a pretty good mom, but Harley is such a wonderful baby that I'm not sure if its me or her that make it go so smoothly. It feels good to be recognized and complimented though. I sure hope that I'm a good mom and that she feels like I am, especially later in life.

So this morning was pretty uneventful. The whole family is coming down with colds and I think that was what was making Harley a bit more fussy than usual. She was having what I like to call a "look at me" day. I couldn't break eye contact or she would scream. She has learned to fake cry and it gets pretty loud. I would break eye contact for a five seconds and she would let out this scream like she had just been stabbed. However, when I looked back at her a big smile would light up her face. It was so precious that I couldn't even be annoyed. I suppose facebook can always wait when you have a sweet little baby who is so deserving of your attention.

After Matty woke up we went over to my parents house to get his phone and wallet that he left there the night before. On the way over he told me that he thought that perhaps we had been fighting more because he had been prideful in thinking that he was beyond reproach. It was true that he had been acting like that somewhat, but I just respected him so much for saying that. I know that pride is one of my biggest weaknesses and often I don't take criticism well and feel "beyond reproach". One day I will get to that point and I'm excited that Matty will be my guide in that. At my parents house the landscapers finally started on the backyard project. I'm really excited to see how it turns out. From the plans it looks like it will be really neat. We played Wii with Sean for a few hours before heading home to make dinner for the missionaries and Travis and Leah who have been taking the lessons from the missionaries. It was a pretty good lesson, but it gets so frustrating when all we do is pick apart the differences in beliefs and interpretations of scripture. Today we talked about the idea of the Trinity and the idea that God wanted Adam and Eve to partake of the fruit. I just wanted to yell "it doesn't matter!! If you don't pray about the book of Mormon and learn that its true then we will go in these circles forever!" I think Travis wants to be a BoM scholar before he will chose to believe it. I don't know that he is ready to humble himself enough to pray to God to know of its truth. Well now I'm tired. Harley is asleep, I got my Spanish homework done before midnight and I'm ready for bed. If only my sore throat would go away and the apartment would cool down below 80 degrees. I forgot to take a picture of Harley all day so I snuck into her room and snapped one while she was sleeping. It will have to do for today.

Day 3, April 4, 2010

HAPPY EASTER!!! Sunday was Easter Sunday and it was also the second day of General Conference. I suppose its my Methodist roots, but I was a little disappointed to not have an "Easter service" to attend today. Nonetheless we did dress Harley in her Easter dress complete with oversized flower. Unfortunately she had an accident all over the back of it during our stroll around Creekside before I could get any pictures. I will stage some later though. My mom made some nice Easter baskets for us and we had the traditional "hunt". It was much milder than most years, meaning that no one bled or cried. Sean and I tied with 10 eggs each, Matty had 9, and Jenny was pretty overwhelmed by the violence and only managed to find 6 or so. Next year Harley gets to hunt eggs all by herself and the era of Sean and I as the children will officially end. It's pretty exciting! So that was our Easter Sunday. Very relaxed and happy. I'm excited for Conference to come out on MP3 so we can listen to each talk at a time and have time to ponder it before the next one.

Day 2 April 3, 2010

Ok so I'm officially really really bad at keeping a journal every day. The good thing is that I have remembered to take a picture every day which I will be posting. Saturday was really great. Well it didnt start off very great. Matt and I have been snippy with eachother all weekend which is really starting to stress us out and making us more snippy. It's such an awful cycle. I think its over now. It gets harder and harder to communicate when we are both frustrated and even though we talk about it we don't quite get over it completely and end up snapping at the other one again. Luckily it only ever lasts a couple of days. I'm so lucky to have Matt as an amazing communicator for our relationship. He has taught me so much about healthy relationships since we have been married.
So Saturday was the first day of General Conference. I really enjoyed sustaining the General Authorities. It's really neat to be given the opportunity to say "I believe that President Monson is a prophet and I will head what he says because it is direct revelation from God." with a simple raise of the hand in my jammies. On Saturday afternoon we all went on a picnic. I made some homemade chicken nuggets and we went down by the Scioto River. Unfortunately it was really really windy and started to get kind of chilly so we couldnt sit and enjoy the river completely. Saturday evening we went over to my parents house and just hung out. We watched a few episodes of Project Runway that was DVRd and played Wii Super Mario until about 1am. We spent the night and woke up Easter Morning!! What a fun day!

Day 1 April 2, 2010

Oops almost typed 2009 there! It always takes me until about October to figure out that the year switched! So today was awesome! Unseasonably warm weather (about 75) and not a cloud in the sky. Harley and I spent the morning hanging out (well mostly she slept in the jumper, the crib, and the swing) and doing spanish homework. It's so great to be back in school but I'm finding focusing after being out of the game so long a bit of a challenge. The quarter didnt start off very well either. On Thursday night I rushed to drop Harley off at grandma's, fought rush hour back, fought for a parking place, power-walked to class in flip flops, and finally sat down in class 5mins late. Unfortunately right after I sat down I looked at the syllabus the professor gave me and the top said Creative Writing 210. Sounds like a fun class, but I was signed up for Comparative Religion 270!! I thought I just wrote the classroom down wrong so I stepped outside to call Matty. He confirmed that I had been in the wrong room but informed me that my class was actually on TUESDAY not Thursday. Both start with a T and it was an honest mistake in scheduling. I was really really bummed because I had been looking forward to that class and its only one day a week so I missed a good portion of the lectures already. Oh well though. I'm back on track now I suppose.

We spent the evening at my parents house decorating easter eggs with Sean and Jenny. It was a great time! Sean also made an amazing pizza that we all shared. Who knows what we will do tomorrow, but it's Saturday and we have all day off!!! Now I am very tired and I want to go read my book The Shack. I'm only about 10 pages in so I have nothing interesting to say about it just yet. I should also probably wake Harley up from sleeping in the carseat (where she has been since we got home) and nurse her so she can go to bed. Goodnight until tomorrow!

The beginning of the blog

So I'm not so much blogging as much as journaling. At this time I don't plan on telling anyone about my blog. I'm kind of just using blogspot as a dumping ground for my thoughts and an online storage facility. I want to get good at journaling not just for me, but for Harley. I want her to be able to look back and know about me and her family and have a refresh recount of the early days for when my mind begins to slip and I fill in the real details with a little bit of imagination. I also want to post some pictures of my pride and joy Harley Kathleen. I'm totally stealing this idea from Felicia, but I've decided that I too am going to take a picture of Harley every single day, for 365 days, and post them here. If a picture is worth a thousand words then I'm sure I will have said a lot when this year is up!